I went to Sunday service today, and pastor Josh offered insight that felt like it was meant for me. Before anyone gets up in arms about the fact that I go to a christian church let me clarify a few stereotypes about the church. Just because I go to a christian church does not mean I am against anyone, and I don’t judge anyone for how they live. gay, straight, trans, black, white, latino, asian. as long as you are living your life true to how you feel and who you want to be I am so happy you’re here.

Josh started off talking about how much fear is in the world right now, planes crashing, immigration issues, raids, etc. He talked about how in the space that we were in, and the space we occupy on sundays, it doesnt matter what side of the aisle youre on, it doesnt matter what your immigration status is, youre welcomed and you are loved. That part really resonated with me because he’s right the world is a scary place right now, but people are using the terrible things happen to instill fear in us, and thats not right.

Then he got onto journaling and how important it is. Immediately i had tunnel vision. Sometimes when josh talks and hes talking about what god wants for us or how we can live the word of god i dont understand it, or i dont relate. Journaling he caught my attention, what does god think of journaling was my first question.

Let me clarify one more thing. Some people believe in god, others believe in the universe, others believe its a placebo effect. Everyone calls it something different, but no one is denying it’s existence, so bare with me when i say god or jesus christ.

josh said you need a journal, and then he called out all the manly men who think it’s weak to journal, which i appreciated. he said you need a journal because you need to write down what you want, what you need, write down the questions you have. if you dont write it down youll forget it.

he said you ever wake up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom and you lay back down and a million dollar idea hits you, the light bulb goes off, you have that moment and you say ill tell my wife in the morning. You wake up and you say it hit me last night i had this euphony, it was, it was… i forget. he said “you didn’t write it down? Dummy”

he said if you think it you should ink it, doesnt have to be real pen and paper, can be digital, but just write it down. create a vision board, create reminders and vision statements put them all over your house. i liked that part, im gonna share this passage with josh, so josh forgive me for the language im about to use.

theres a comedian named joey diaz, hes real vulgar, but he always talks about writing down what you want and then going out there and getting it. one of my favorite things he ever said was “get it together, bitch.” Pastor forgive me for that one, but what joey is saying and what josh are saying are not far off.

If you dont write the word, of your wants, of your needs, how are you ever going to get them? what you do with the word determines what the word will do for you he ended with.

alot of you probably think i sound a bit crazy right now but this isnt the church you think it is. Josh is a cool dude, even if i wasn’t curious about god and faith i’d wanna be friends with josh. He’s got tattoos, he rides motorcycles, hes got a sweet boot collection. Hes a dudes dude.

The journaling got me today, because i do it all the time, i dont always share it because sometimes your dreams arent for other people. I share this with people who i know wont see my dreams and tell me thats not gonna happen. I dont share this with small minded people.

today i did two things on purpose in writing this. first i didnt check grammar what so ever, because thats not what matters, the other thing is i saved the best for last.

josh knows ive been going through a hard time the last couple weeks, just mentally something feels off, today when i showed up he gave me a book called intentional living, i already enjoy it, but then i had a conversation with a friend that sparked this.

we were talking about dating, not each other, but just of the idea of it and peoples type. i think what people dont consider anymore because everything for the gram is, who a person is. everyone has a type thats based in physicality, nobody has a type based in intentionality. Stop focusing on looks and wondering why you cant find the right person. focus on their intentions. I live an intentional life, i’m very methodical in my thinking and living, i dont tend to make impulsive decision. intentions will always be worth more than a pretty face, or abs, or whatever youre into.

Josh said write reminders around your house, use the mirrors in your house, and a dry erase marker. Don’t use a sharpie, dummy.

The question i’ll be writing on my mirror after i finish this is one of my favorites, and i end this and share it with you.

“What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?”

That quote is larger than failure, its a way to make you say your most audacious goals, because if you cant even muster up the courage to say then, you’ll never chase them.

Where the skies are gold not gray,

J.