Ever since the day you walked into my life
You flipped me upside down, took me for a ride
I didn’t know how to take it or I never seen it coming
Should’ve just stayed, but I took off running

And now I
Lie awake in the middle of the night tryin’ to figure out what to do
And I know now that I need you in my life just like you always knew, oh
I was a fool and I cut you like a knife, so I got no right to judge you
All I know is I’m more scared to live without you
Than I am to love you
Than I am to love you

You know I think sometimes it’s easy to not see your own value, and then someone comes along and expresses what they see and you reflect and start to see just enough of it to know that they take you for granted.

We don’t live enough to surround ourselves with people who take us for granted, and sometimes you have to cut those people off, which is easier said than done. It’s hard because you’ll never know what they really thought, because they were too afraid to take a chance, or thought they needed to be something other than exactly what they are.

I’d love to ask the question are you more scared to live without me than you are to love me, but the truth is I’m not sure I’m ready for that answer. I’ve never felt like enough, that comes from something deep in my childhood that I’ve never been able to access. Maybe I’m not enough. It’s not a narrative I plan on changing anytime soon since I wouldn’t even know how if I wanted to.

This was just a short one to say sometimes people come and flip your life upside down, and then they run when they should have stayed. Just because you don’t see something coming doesn’t mean it’s not worth exploring. Those people have to live without you instead of knowing what it would be like to love you.

Where the skies are gold not gray,

J.