It’s the poison running
Through your blood
It’s the broken levee
That brought the flood
It’s the loaded barrel of a gun

There is darkness roaming
Through everything
Evil urges awakening
But, the bitter souls
Who will never rest
Good luck
Ladies and Gentlemen

It’s on the days when
You’re lacking love
And you hear the cry from
The morning dove
Then you feel the breath
Leave your lungs

There is darkness roaming
Through everything
Evil urges awakening
The bitter souls
Who will never rest
Good luck
Ladies and Gentlemen

While I’m going to write my thoughts about the election and future, this is not me choosing sides, but just sharing what I believe to be true. You can disagree, as is your right as an American, but I can say it as is my right.. For now.

I didn’t want Donald trump to win the election last night. Not because he’s a 34 time convicted felon, or because he’s rude, insulting, and an all around asshole, but because of what precedent it sets.

It sets the precedent that you can just break the rules and there are no repercussions. That you can be impeached twice, insist people attack the capitol because you lost, and countless other crimes, and still do whatever the fuck you want. It gets rid of law and order completely.

I don’t necessarily think Kamala was the right candidate, but in my opinion the lesser of two evils.

Trump talked about signing a nation wide abortion ban. You can’t preach that Americans should be free and you want all these great things for them, and turn around and take half the countries right to their own bodies away.

Women’s healthcare, and reproductive care, are how we continue as a species, but banning their right to do things that are sometimes medically necessary to save lives, is not a solution.

I bet Donald trump doesn’t know what an ectopic pregnancy is. I bet he doesn’t know that if a woman experiencing one doesn’t go through a surgery that is the only way she doesn’t die, then both her and the nonviable fetus die. Your ban now takes two lives instead of one, please explain to me how that is pro-life.

I can’t help but feel incredibly terrible about this day. I feel bad I didn’t do more, I feel bad I can’t do more. I feel guilty that this happened, and I feel that guilt because as a straight white man in America this doesn’t affect me. All of my tomorrows are the same, I’ll still be able to get any healthcare I want. Still be able to marry who I want, be who I want. What happens to people who aren’t like me? Gay people, Trans people, WOMEN, what happens to them? what happens to you?

I’m not extremely on one side of politics or the other. I think it’s a bit insane that we really only have two parties, and we just have to pick the lesser of the evils. I believe you should be able to own a gun, do I think anyone needs an automatic rifle? Absolutely not. Do I think anyone needs a semi automatic rifle? no. If you want to have a shot gun or a pistol in your house or on your person to protect yourself against threats to your life, I’m all for it. That doesn’t mean I don’t believe women deserve to say what they do with their bodies. It doesn’t mean I don’t believe gay people should be allowed to live and love and get married and enjoy life in the same way as straight people.

Telling other people how to live their lives, or making policies so other people have to live their lives a certain way, that’s not freedom. It’s not democracy either. It’s dictatorship, It’s communism.

To the women in my life, whether you voted for trump or not, I’m sorry I didn’t do more to protect your rights.

This is a deeply personal issue to me because several years ago when my ex and I were still together she had an ectopic pregnancy. She needed medical care that may actually not be available some day. Without that medical care she would be dead, and while things didn’t work out between us, the world is a better place with her in it, and the idea that she would have missed out on so much life because some old fucking white guy said so breaks my fucking heart.

It may be sunny today, but the skies feel gray.

J