Here’s a bizarre question:

Do you think you can fall in love with someone that you don’t want to be with sexually?

Ok hear me out, this is gonna be a weird ride, but we’re gonna take it, because some thoughts need to be said(or written) to make sense of them.

I have this pal, and she is, I mean words can’t describe this level of stunning. She’s maybe my favorite and the best person I’ve ever met, and every time we hang out I’m a little more blown away. Now it wouldn’t be a true story involving me if I didn’t admit that maybe I have a very small teeny tiny crush on her. Then I was thinking, it feels mostly emotional. Don’t get me wrong she’s model material and objectively beautiful, but like that’s not the part of her that draws me in, it’s the fact that she’s a stunning blonde and not a complete and utter moron. Like the lights are on AND someone is actually home. You really don’t see that a ton these days, you see a lot of instagram girls who cant hold a conversation, and are just looking to go do like trendy bullshit things. She is very much the opposite.

It made me wonder, Can you fall for someone and have the sexual aspect of things not cross your mind much? is that good? is it bad? is it weird?

I think maybe it just feels strange because in todays society hook up culture is a big thing so when you meet someone and you’re like woah I actually just like this person as a person and you’re not looking at them like an object like most people do maybe that’s what changes.

I think it’s maybe the first time in my life I’ve craved intimacy and affection from someone in a more emotional way than physical way, and maybe that just makes me weird. I’m not saying the physical part hasn’t crossed my mind, but like when I’m with her it’s usually the last thing I’m thinking about, and I don’t know if that’s good, bad, neutral or weird. Any advice is welcomed.

Also there’s an Apple TV series called Platonic which is very fucking funny.

Where the skies are gold not gray,

J.