I’m callin’ her Shrek ’cause she got a donkey
It’s crazy how well we get along

My new best friend I just met
Now it’s, “Fuck everybody else”
You love someone for six weekends
And never talk to them again

Call it what you want
It’s such a tragedy
I pulled the shortest straw
Another casualty, guess I’ll leave

The first line was only thrown in because it makes me giggle a little, and today I feel like I could use that.

I feel like this generation is just full of socialites, one of which I am not. I’m happy to go out and do things, but I don’t need a group of people around me to do things, or to feel my best, or be my best.

You love someone for six weekends
And never talk to them again

This generation is also full of short bursts of “love” and then ghosting each other. I’m not sure I’ve ever ghosted someone, maybe ghosting is kinder than telling someone the truth about how you feel, but I always stick to just being honest, which usually comes off rude. I guess I just don’t understand it, how I ended up here at this time.

I clearly wasn’t meant to be a part of a generation of dating apps, short lived romance, and ghosting. Or maybe I was and my childhood caused me to have to mature earlier than most people my age, and with that life became exhausting and I live in overdrive.

I’m not sure if it’s that I lack time for dating apps, short lived friendships or as the kids call it “situationships” or if I genuinely lack the ability to give a single shit about any of it. You know what I don’t find cool?

Going out and getting fucked up every weekend, not being honest about your intentions, poor communication, lack of drive or ambition, someone who’s comfortable with their life. Someone being comfortable in their life feels the same to me as someone who thinks they’re the smartest person in the room. If you think you’re the smartest person in the room, it’s time for a bigger room. And if you’re comfortable with your life, it’s probably time for a bigger life.

You know what I do find cool?

Someone who is emotionally available, ambitious, career driven, with a normal attachment style, who can be committed to one person. That describes me and I guess in some sense I want someone on the same level as me, because if you’re out giving everyone the time of day not sure what you wanna do in life, keep doing you, but that lifestyle isn’t for me.

Let’s face it, most people would claim to be those things, but actions speak louder than words. If you’re out with the same people doing the same things, and expecting different results, well that’s actually the definition of insanity. Sometimes in life you either need to shit or get off the pot. Either actually go after what you’re claiming you want, or just admit you’re content where you are and that’s probably the furthest you’ll ever go. So tell me we got in common, socialite.

The saying goes:

Never look a gift horse in the mouth.

Where the skies are gold not gray,

J.

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