So this is continuous happiness
You know, I always imagined it something more
With the right drapes, the right paints, the right frames
This could really work
What a great day to spend indoors

I always write at home, but today inspiration hit me at work, well actually it hit me last night but I was too tired to type the words. Someone from my past life texted me yesterday and said they’re happy to see me happy again.

When I left work last night I was oddly happy, it feels like life is moving in the right direction. I’m not sure I know what happiness is, or if that’s what I’m experiencing, but for the first time in my life I’m not stressed about the future, I’m excited for it.

I know people talk about gut feelings a lot, well I have a gut feeling life is about to get really good. Professionally I’m in a space that makes sense, doing what I love. Personally, well I still have work to do, but I’m doing it.

Last night as I drove home in the rain I didn’t have anxiety, I wasn’t panicked, I felt calm and okay. I can’t tell you the last time I felt that way, life feels like it’s flowing. Nothing feels forced, everything feels exactly as it should.

That being said that all scares the shit out of me because when does the other shoe drop? is there another shoe to drop?

People always associate the other shoe with something negative, well maybe the other shoe is actively dropping, and it’s all the positive shit happening in my life. Maybe I’ve been looking at it all wrong this whole time.

It feels like I’m surrounding myself with people who are helping me see life a bit more positive, and also making me feel at ease. Eventually those people will leave, as is life, but. for now I guess I’ll take this moment to soak in all I can.

I hope you’re happy too.

Where the skies are gold not gray,

J.