Oh, if you keep reachin’ out
Then I’ll keep comin’ back
‘Cause if you’re gone for good
Then I’m okay with that
If you leave the light on
Then I’ll leave the light on

I just watched a rom-com, that wasn’t very funny, but was very good. It’s called “the idea of you” It opens with this Maggie rogers song and the moment I heard the song I knew I’d enjoy the movie, because I LOVE Maggie rogers and Anne Hathaway.

You know, it’s funny, I relate to the movies in some ways. Without spoiling too much a much younger gentleman dates an older woman, he’s famous, and because of that it goes to shit. She has a daughter, social media ruins the world, you get the idea.

I relate because more often than not, I prefer to date women older than me. I’m sure if you dug deep enough there’s some real fucked up reason as to why. At the surface though, it generally has to do with maturity. I think I had to learn to be an adult at a really young age, so I don’t always feel 28.

The song played at the beginning and the end, and when it played at the end I thought more about sort of my current life. Where I’m interested in this person, who’s maybe afraid, not sure, something. Anyways this song makes me think about how if this person continues to talk to me I’ll continue to talk to them, and if they’re gone for good I’ll learn to be ok with that too.

But to the point of the song, if they leave the light on, I’ll leave the light on. To me that means that if they always leave the door open, I can learn to do that too. I can accept the maybe not right now but maybe not never if that makes sense.

I’m not sure, I keep telling myself I’m going to stop talking about it and move on from it and something in life always keeps bringing me back to it. For me that’s a bit of a sign that maybe I shouldn’t move on from it, but life doesn’t like to give you the answers for free, you really gotta work to find them.

I will say this is the first time I’ve ever written two blogs in one night, and I’m happy I wrote this one, I love this song.

And to that special person

If you leave the light on
Then I’ll leave the light on

J.