All the wicked things that I keep thinking are putting lines across my face. I should be happy with what I’ve got going, shouldn’t be bitter at my age. Someone amazing’s in the room and I don’t want them to be there. They’re looking beautiful and cool. I just want to feel that too. I want your suntan, I want your (g)irlfriend, I want what you’ve got I say it a lot.

First, the word girlfriend looks like that because she actually says boyfriend in this song and that wouldn’t be true.

This song brings up a lot of thoughts for me, especially the fact that I shouldn’t be this bitter at my age, it is in face putting lines in my face but I hope that as time goes on and I age those lines will make me look, idk distinct. Like a George Clooney type. Anyways at face value this song is simple, we’ve all been jealous of what someone else had or has.

The interesting thing is as much as we’re jealous of a person, they’re fighting their own battle. Everyones life looks good from outside the the space between their ears. You never know what someone has going on upstairs, what keeps them up at night, and in that case I think it’s safe to say you don’t want what they got.

To be envy is a bit of a fictitious feeling. Sure you can envy the superficial things, but you don’t actually envy that persons life, or want it.

You want your own life and you may want your life to look like someone else’s in certain aspects, but to have someone else’s life arguably wouldn’t be worth living.

You have to live for you and if you’re living someone else’s life you’re simply not doing that.

Sure you could want someones sun tan, but is it a genuine tan? is it a spray tan? to what length did they go to have perfectly sun kissed skin?

I think the idea of wanting someones significant other is a strange one too. You don’t know what their actual relationship is like, it could be awful, the exact thing you’re actively trying to avoid in your relationships.

I guess what I’m saying is even though I’ve been resonating with aspects of this song, less the tan, more the idea of someones significant other, I think you need to put that idea aside until that person no longer has a significant other. I do believe you can be friends in the mean time, and I think strong healthy relationships are ones that start with friendships. For me it’s easier to be vulnerable with a friend, there’s less at stake. Through vulnerability is how you grow connection, and then after time is when you’ll actually have your answer of if you wanted what someone had.

Don’t take things at face value. Now I sound like a shitty horoscope or a fortune cookie, regardless I stand by it.

Where the skies are gold not gray, J.

P.S. If you read this I’d love to know, reach out. If you have any song ideas that would make a thought provoking blog, reach out. I’d like to interact with those that read this, maybe we can learn about each other.